This has been a weird week, n’est-ce pas? It seems like it has dragged on and on. Usually, I’m not this trudged after a week. Sure, a few of the days seemed like they weren’t going to end, but I thought most went by fast, but today? I can’t get motivated to do anything. I’m doing some work, but it’s like I’m just staring at the screen.
I’m doing that with this work, too. Writing this post, I opened up WP and prepped to start writing and wondered, well, what am I going to write about today? And, nothing was coming to me other than, ugh… is this week over, yet? Well, it’s almost over but i have to make it through today, right?
You know, the more I think about it, even my historically slow days this week have been draining. Most of what I do is staring at a screen, using electronics, mental power and manipulation (not people but the sources and mediums that I use for my work). On top of that, there’s things going on in my business that I need to take care of but I feel that most of the time I’m too busy doing the meat of the work to take care of the peripherals. I need an assistant, I guess. Where can I find one of those for free? I figure that’s a lost cause (he chuckles to himself). I’m hoping that being this is Friday and I have this weekend off before the next three are taken up with musical things, that I can recharge my batteries.
I understand the “you’re not getting any younger” part, but I don’t feel that there is any less ability, just that I’ve gained more workload, which, of course, I do to myself. I want more work. Careful what you wish for and all that. Really, though, I love it, just running out of hours in the day. The BCPF told me the other day she heard me trying to schedule business meetings in my sleep. If I could just do away with sleep, I’d be happy. I have never liked it and if it wasn’t necessary, I surely would eliminate it from my life. But, I can’t.
All that being said, you know what? I’m looking to do more, believe it or not. I’m thinking that if I can get some normalcy of the schedule then I can fill dead space with productive time. I have the time as long as other things aren’t scheduled. I can fit it in there. I will fit it in there. The key will be that scheduling. It will happen. I’m very routine-minded so as long as I can get it down to one, my life will be much easier. Now, to make that happen! Onward and upward, but before that… Bring on that danged Friday and let me prep for my walking Saturday and just enjoy time with The BCPF.
Enjoy your weekend, Dear Reader, and until tomorrow, same blog channel…
“It always seems impossible until its done.” – Nelson Mandela